Hello the irreplaceable

i just received the beautiful calendar! (: SMILES SUPER WIDELY! (:

I cant really explain how i felt but its more than happiness. i think i felt bliss! (: going through the calendar reminded me of all the old times and all the times when you just really a phone call, a bus ride, a few metres away from me. You were always there. I miss them, those moments. But i feel more grown up now, do you? I feel as though we are learning to be more independent yet dependent on each other =). But you matter just as much. (no doubt)

i bleamed when i heard Wen han say “you know when we skype my sister, when she mention your name, she almost cried” (: though i heard it before from u or your mummy, it made me so =D happy! it was so funny cos Sherron asked “So whats her reaction when she talks  about me” haha. then your brother said “oh i didnt hear her talk about u!” hahahha. it was super funny. and he said it was cos i was your “best friend”

i just wanna say, thanks so much for being my best friend(: haha really. i dont think i can find anyone like you. like you said, irreplaceble (: it is not a cliche “i call u best friend, you call me best friend”. i think i found the authenticity, i found the substance, i found the true meaning of what a best friend is. Not something easily found, but i am blessed with such a finding! (:

❤

i want you here!!!

it’s crazy without having you here with me. i still feel so lost, feel so confused, and kinda feeling lonely. i just went for camp, and it was ultra weird! cuz i didnt have my dear friend beside me. i didnt have someone to walk around with, someone to smile at, someone to play with. or wadeva. even if people could read my emotions, they wouldnt be able to read it as well as you do. as i watched people happily playing around with each other, oh how much i wish you were there. i’m not saying this to like have u sympathize me or wadeva, i just wanna tell you how much you really really mean to me. i didnt think it’ll be so hard. ok, wadeva i wrote just sounded soo horrid. its not as horrid as it seems, but i really just simply miss you. i want to go home….hurrrrr………..

after all that is said, i know that you are having your exams now. last paper tmr and then freedom. i’m really glad this sem is about to be over for you. rest finally! hahas. keep going strong, keep fighting on, you’ll be able to come out as a conqueror tmr after the paper.

i love you so much dearest! come here for exchange please!!!!

hugs!

hey darl, you’re missed. like really really missed. i think i cannot find another you, not that i am trying to, but its so hard without you here. i was sitting in cell, i was lying in bed last night just thinking about how everything is just less happy, less alive in me because i am lacking a best friend’s presence here to just have fun with me. i miss you.

this week has been so uber busy! i can hardly breathe. and i also didnt have time to spend with you, i feel quite sad actually. but you know what? God is still providing for this friendship! and i hope God is still evidently providing for you there in Aussie! (:

and one thing! stay STRONG. (: and i’ll Pray!! ❤ you ….

i read the last note!

hello! (: i read the last note in the book! i cried. its addictive. like i cannot put it down! i just read and read. it really blessed me to know you LOVE me to much! i mean everyone wants to feel loved right? and thank you for making me feel loved! (: i have energy to face tmr alr!!!! so much work! but i know i have the things that would last eternally! (: you make me smile! really do!!!!!

anyways, i am so glad that you have found good friends there. just hearing you laugh with them over skype while you guys had supper made me smile! (: show me pictures of all of you soon! (: i am really truly happy for you! and i pray for more of such moments for you. i believe that you make such a good friend to others like how you have in singapore.=) so continue to bless everyone with your bubbly character, out of the norm lifestyle. you are different yihui! and that makes you yihui! (: maybe i should name my daughter yihui!? hahaha

i am so excited to go over for exchange! i shall plan when to go soon! (: like i must have a strategy! saving money plan. there is so much i wanna do, so little resources! if only i had a money tree. hahha well. anyways, you mentioned that hug before you went to your grandma’s hse! I REMEMBER IT! like clearly! i remember that hug. it made my day. i remember being all flustered cos of p6 stuff and all, but that hug was the hug of affirmation i needed and the hug of simply a best friend. something i couldnt ask for more. =) and you’re not a boyfriend to me luhh! ahhaha you’re a beautiful princess of God, beautiful girl in the eyes of many many many many guys, and a beautiful person inside out that really attracts many to your character! (:

but somehow i wish you were here!

anyways, let me share with you some people in my life! i went prawning with my friends a few weeks back! (lets do this when you come back yea? ) and they are sharon (she says she knows you), yuzhen (who says she know you too), mijuan and Jimmy! (: they are all really nice people i got to know this year! and truly a blessing! so let me introduce you to them! here is a picture of us!

the group! (:

any of them look familiar?? hahaha

 

but after saying all these, i miss your presence.

a place in mine (:

hellooo dearest!=) sorry i havent been blogging! but this doesnt mean that i am not thinking about you! but here goes.

I am so glad that we talked on Friday night! it really blessed my heart and it made me really happy! =) so so so happy that i have a great friend in you! despite the distance we’re still strong! thats really amazing and its beautiful! thank you God. Dont you just feel that bond whenever we talk? like its so easy. its so usual. and i am serious about having NO phone conversations when you’re not around. hahah. but i treasure every phone / skype conversation with you! it means so much. so much! =) cos we suck quite a lot on msn. like no chemistry on msn right? haha

i just read your little book to me. thank you for seeing the best in me darl. thank you for letting me know how you feel about me and it really brought me to tears. it is especially during my weakest moments, this book makes me stronger. your words are so apt and so real. thank you. =) you encourage me even when we’re apart. you make me feel like you’re around once again. it matters a lot to me, it means so much.

thank you for letting me cry over the phone, thank you for crying over the phone. it makes everything more real. and its beautiful! i wish i could be there for you and you be here for me. but thank God for a brand new way of communication! its amazing dont you think? =) you made me feel special when you sacrificed your sleep for me. you made me feel you cared! (which you do) you’re really sweet!

now let me tell you, you have so much in you that amazes me. you really inspire me and you really have a great and beautiful heart. you’re someone different, someone who dares to be herself and people love you for that. you make others feel special when they feel ordinary. you bring out the best in others when no one believed. you make people smile and you’re a great company. you make saturdays fun when without you, its just dull.

You make a difference in my life. =) thank you for always being my best friend. its no cliche, best friends like you dont come by, thank you for that place in your heart. You’ll always have that place in mine! (;

someone’s watching over you! (:

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you’re not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you’ll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
That someone’s watching over
Someone’s watching over
Someone’s watching over me

Someone’s watching over me

darl, i know you’re not gg thru a good time. but someone is watching over you! (:

we cried and hide

you make me smile

hello! (:

we both are crying! and hiding from each other. its really funny yet sad. i wish you were here. I wish i was there. this is one thing i really wish for this moment. i need to feel like myself again. without you here, it feels weird. really weird. like you made me who i am. it feels so sad in church. i hardly find my place. last time, i knew you were there. its getting harder by the day, yet easier. its a coping mechanism to try to hide my feelings day by day, but when i talk to you, it comes out naturally. Yihui, you make me real. and you are one i can be real with. (most) i miss you! (i say this with all my heart)

and you look beautiful even when you cry! and you are always a beauty.

yihui! sad or happy moments! i’ll share with you! (; and DEAR STALKER OF YIHUI, I OWN YOU! (:

JUST Like how you said that spending time with ppl there is not the same, spending time with ppl here without you, is different too! =(

no one can substitue you in my heart.

i miss you my best friend,comforter, the one i love truly and surely! (:

missed

Hellooo darl! (:

you finally have started sch there in Aussie =)haha i hope sch was fun! and plus it sounds pretty interesting that you are having to run 3km for sch! poor thing! hahah i actually made my way to the gym yesterday after crystal’s long persuasion! haha but it felt good!!!! (: anyways, i saw your FB pictures. like Abelle mentioned got a lot of cute angmohh boys there huh! hahaa remember our surfer dude agreement ok?! hahaa kidding! but i miss you! really do. i miss picking up my phone and smsing you or calling you! i miss hopping over to your house. =(

but i am glad we still communicate !!!!!!! (: thanks for making time for me darl! i love you!

guess what?? i am finally going out with smu ppl tmr! (: i am pretty excited about it. we’re going to watch slumdog millionaire and prawning! (: cool ehh? anyways, sorry i have been really faithful in updating my thoughts about you here but honestly, there is so much difference without you around!

i miss seeing u in church!!

supper is different without you! (we have to walk) hahaha

so in all! we all miss you! haha and ppl still are asking me how i am coping with you not being here! (: hahah

=)

I havent really been updating because its just been such a difficult week to get through. EVERYONE in SMU is dying and all. Thankfully God’s grace and love is still in my life! (: Really tough week. But i skipped school today so i can really sit down and complete my assignment due tmr! ahhhh!

Okay, last night, i went over to your place to collect Jon’s and Shiyun’s present. It was really nostalgic and I really missed you badly. I wanted to msg you immediately to tell u that your house reminded me of you! (like DUH). Seeing your mum brought familiarity and it felt like i was about to see you again! Yihui!!! where are you?! i walked into your room, the first thing i noticed was your bed, of course, it looked the same but the room felt different, somehow, it wasnt your messy room! haha but it felt different in a way cos of the smell and usually when i walk up there, somehow you’re there! and you werent!

so i collected the presents for ShiyUn and Jon and headed down and had a short and fun chat with your mum! i think its so cute how she told me about your dad finding it so hard to leave you there! its so so sweet. Even your mum misses you so much! (trust me, i can see it in her eyes) hahaa and yeah i believe she misses the one she can talk to (like how you talk to her)!

thanks for the slippers dear! hahah i really needed a formal slipper to get thru sch cos my mummy is always scolding me about the flipflops i am wearing! so its really timely that i got a slipper and i think its nice (: thanks! we have identical slippers right? (: yay though on different land, we walk with the same slippers! yay! and your mum showed me pictures of Perth too! (of course, needing me to SELL perth to the rest this sunday) haha. but i will! (:

this is the week 7 in school, it feels as though i’m super overwhelmed already! this sem is bad man. but STRENGTH comes from GOd (: hurray!

I really miss you Yihui, and I love you! dearly! (:

thank God for this

DaySix, Happy Valentines

Dear yihui! just spent like 2 hrs on skype with you! actually this is better than phone calls! it has not much heat! actually no heat at all! so cool huh?! haha but thats besides the point. I am sorry i aint there for you during this time where i know you’re going thru some r* problems and all. I know i am not really good at talking things thru with you basicaly cos my mind is also in a mess. but talking to you really made me WISH SO MUCH that i was there with you. 😦

Thanks for the talk. The waiting for me to get home to talk. I tell you i was really EMO in church! church holds quite a bit of memories of us! like simply your presence there brings comfort. like you dont have to be talking to me. but your presence makes A BIG difference! you know what i mean right?? and like whats worse is that today’s service was about friendship! like of all things! and like i told you, i was looking for you, or at least i was imagining how Great it’ll be if you were here! but nevertheless, its alright =) just know i miss YOU! and today PJ talked about a gift that she finds so hard to have and all and like its not impt to her at all initially. its the gift of MERCY. the one you always laugh at me about. haha yeah! see! but its impt now =) yay to merciful ppl! hahah

your little notebook is really a blessing to me my dear! (: it keeps me strong just like how the skype conversations we have keep me strong! (: Stronger than yesterday! (: haha this is from some britney spears song that keeps ringing in my head. i think maybe its a sign that everyday i’m becoming STRONGER (: wheee.

oh! i am glad sherlene is like so similar to you! (: i say this with TOTAL LOVE no jealousy at all! (: haha i have security in our friendship and i am so glad so glad so glad that she’s one who can relate to you and viceversa. (: yay! i wanna meet her! she sounds great and cool! (: i have yet to find a friend like that in SMU. prob wont really need too since i have abby, sheep, germs they all. yeahh. but still, i think you and sherlene are like divine opportunity!!!! so cool! so when we have the chance, lets meet on webcam! (: hahah (oh wait, you wont be seeing this until say 1 or 2 months later? haha)

almost a week has past. it really made me so touched when i asked you what you felt when you entered and you said pain. but the one person you were thinking about is me. =D its really sweet and i cannot ask for more. i feel so touched that of all the many out there waving at you, you think of me. haha thank you! (: i value that a lot. Honestly, i found it difficult to talk to you that night. It was like “oh man how am i supposed to make the most of these few hours/ minutes/ moments when she’s here”. it was like a i didnt know what to do.

and the picture above, is the few out of the many who misses you! a lot a lot a lot =)

dear yihui, i hope church for you would be great tmr! (: you have a good time! and i love you dearly!