hugs!

hey darl, you’re missed. like really really missed. i think i cannot find another you, not that i am trying to, but its so hard without you here. i was sitting in cell, i was lying in bed last night just thinking about how everything is just less happy, less alive in me because i am lacking a best friend’s presence here to just have fun with me. i miss you.

this week has been so uber busy! i can hardly breathe. and i also didnt have time to spend with you, i feel quite sad actually. but you know what? God is still providing for this friendship! and i hope God is still evidently providing for you there in Aussie! (:

and one thing! stay STRONG. (: and i’ll Pray!! ❤ you ….

i read the last note!

hello! (: i read the last note in the book! i cried. its addictive. like i cannot put it down! i just read and read. it really blessed me to know you LOVE me to much! i mean everyone wants to feel loved right? and thank you for making me feel loved! (: i have energy to face tmr alr!!!! so much work! but i know i have the things that would last eternally! (: you make me smile! really do!!!!!

anyways, i am so glad that you have found good friends there. just hearing you laugh with them over skype while you guys had supper made me smile! (: show me pictures of all of you soon! (: i am really truly happy for you! and i pray for more of such moments for you. i believe that you make such a good friend to others like how you have in singapore.=) so continue to bless everyone with your bubbly character, out of the norm lifestyle. you are different yihui! and that makes you yihui! (: maybe i should name my daughter yihui!? hahaha

i am so excited to go over for exchange! i shall plan when to go soon! (: like i must have a strategy! saving money plan. there is so much i wanna do, so little resources! if only i had a money tree. hahha well. anyways, you mentioned that hug before you went to your grandma’s hse! I REMEMBER IT! like clearly! i remember that hug. it made my day. i remember being all flustered cos of p6 stuff and all, but that hug was the hug of affirmation i needed and the hug of simply a best friend. something i couldnt ask for more. =) and you’re not a boyfriend to me luhh! ahhaha you’re a beautiful princess of God, beautiful girl in the eyes of many many many many guys, and a beautiful person inside out that really attracts many to your character! (:

but somehow i wish you were here!

anyways, let me share with you some people in my life! i went prawning with my friends a few weeks back! (lets do this when you come back yea? ) and they are sharon (she says she knows you), yuzhen (who says she know you too), mijuan and Jimmy! (: they are all really nice people i got to know this year! and truly a blessing! so let me introduce you to them! here is a picture of us!

the group! (:

any of them look familiar?? hahaha

 

but after saying all these, i miss your presence.

a place in mine (:

hellooo dearest!=) sorry i havent been blogging! but this doesnt mean that i am not thinking about you! but here goes.

I am so glad that we talked on Friday night! it really blessed my heart and it made me really happy! =) so so so happy that i have a great friend in you! despite the distance we’re still strong! thats really amazing and its beautiful! thank you God. Dont you just feel that bond whenever we talk? like its so easy. its so usual. and i am serious about having NO phone conversations when you’re not around. hahah. but i treasure every phone / skype conversation with you! it means so much. so much! =) cos we suck quite a lot on msn. like no chemistry on msn right? haha

i just read your little book to me. thank you for seeing the best in me darl. thank you for letting me know how you feel about me and it really brought me to tears. it is especially during my weakest moments, this book makes me stronger. your words are so apt and so real. thank you. =) you encourage me even when we’re apart. you make me feel like you’re around once again. it matters a lot to me, it means so much.

thank you for letting me cry over the phone, thank you for crying over the phone. it makes everything more real. and its beautiful! i wish i could be there for you and you be here for me. but thank God for a brand new way of communication! its amazing dont you think? =) you made me feel special when you sacrificed your sleep for me. you made me feel you cared! (which you do) you’re really sweet!

now let me tell you, you have so much in you that amazes me. you really inspire me and you really have a great and beautiful heart. you’re someone different, someone who dares to be herself and people love you for that. you make others feel special when they feel ordinary. you bring out the best in others when no one believed. you make people smile and you’re a great company. you make saturdays fun when without you, its just dull.

You make a difference in my life. =) thank you for always being my best friend. its no cliche, best friends like you dont come by, thank you for that place in your heart. You’ll always have that place in mine! (;

someone’s watching over you! (:

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you’re not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you’ll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
That someone’s watching over
Someone’s watching over
Someone’s watching over me

Someone’s watching over me

darl, i know you’re not gg thru a good time. but someone is watching over you! (:

we cried and hide

you make me smile

hello! (:

we both are crying! and hiding from each other. its really funny yet sad. i wish you were here. I wish i was there. this is one thing i really wish for this moment. i need to feel like myself again. without you here, it feels weird. really weird. like you made me who i am. it feels so sad in church. i hardly find my place. last time, i knew you were there. its getting harder by the day, yet easier. its a coping mechanism to try to hide my feelings day by day, but when i talk to you, it comes out naturally. Yihui, you make me real. and you are one i can be real with. (most) i miss you! (i say this with all my heart)

and you look beautiful even when you cry! and you are always a beauty.

yihui! sad or happy moments! i’ll share with you! (; and DEAR STALKER OF YIHUI, I OWN YOU! (:

JUST Like how you said that spending time with ppl there is not the same, spending time with ppl here without you, is different too! =(

no one can substitue you in my heart.

i miss you my best friend,comforter, the one i love truly and surely! (: